Sunday, September 21, 2008 @ 2:50 AM
Yhahas.. after a long break yea im bac posting.
erm well its still okay nwadays.. yea erm yest went to library to study and b4 dat was like so fcking irritated. weiming juz keeps ddragging the time waiting for sean, smoking, everyting.. den dam frustrated alr so go gombak mrt meet xinyi 1st yea den go library sebas was with jenny lols den after dat we decide to sit there and after awhile sebas went bac with his frens which are downstairs.. den studied and we went home yea den when i reached home.. xinyi asked me for juinfai's number yea.. knew it la.. knew dat she wun like a guy for so long.. gd ting i didnt waited for her.. imagine i waited for her and she liked sumone else wtf... lols den i juz gave her and i decided nt to tok to her so much nw ba.. anyway she will be busy toking to jf.. hahas aiya i shouldnt care so much oso.. haiis.. dun wan call her go out anymre liao la.. she oso wun care me nw liao nw she only care bout jf ma.. wun care me de la.. im juz like any other guy she met and forget...
haii and about ruijun.. u really dun wan see me izit? its like everytime u are going out u oso nvr tell me and even if u told me.. ur juz saying it.. u didnt even ask if i wanna go.. y? and i said dat my frens all oso lidat go out oso nvr ask me go.. and i asked if u will lidat anot.. u said huh den i explained to u and u said oh.. wtf la.. u dun wan ans izit? or u trying to say dat ya u will do it.. u will nt ask me to go out with u izit? zzz im serious irritated alr la.. so many times u alr dun wan me go out with u even if im with u its like u oso dun like it lidat.. den i say wan pei u go home y muz u let jasmine say the reason for u? if the reason is dat simple.. y cnt u say it urself? i really dun get everyting la.. i oso dun wan to ask u cus u noe y? u will juz reply oh.. oh oh oh oh and oh everyyting to u is oh la.. u oso dun care and u dun wan to care i noe la.. im like juz nth to u rit im juz a oh to u la.. everyting oso oh oh oh oh oh u can even spend dat half an hour replying oh oh oh ohoh u tink very funny meh den i tell u la its nt funny la.. its fcking irritating la.. i ask u tink u oso oh i tok to u u oso oh ask u going go out liao ah u oso oh.. wa lao can stop replying oh ma? haiish nt dat i dun like u.. bt really i dun like ppl nt telling me and nt showing concern for me.. ok concern is mayb nt so much of a problem although sumtimes i tell u tings u still didnt showed me any concern.. bt anyway.. hope dat will change in the future? yea.. and sumtimes ur reply.. its really very short.. and i really wanted u to noe i dun like ppl to reply short msg.. in a msg u can type 160 alphabets.. y waste dat 100+ space?? even my fren oso said " wa i tot u and ruijun stead? y she reply so cold one?" haiis.. the reason i dun wan to tell u is i dun wan to affect how u express urself infront of me.. i dun wan u to start acting like nt urself.. i told u i dun like annabelle i bet u alrr start to lie to me dat ur nt with annabelle when u are.. if really theres a nid to lie in a relationship.. den wads the nid to hve a relationship? haiish... nvm ba.. lets hope tings will change..
with love! :D
Saturday, September 13, 2008 @ 10:32 PM
Yseriously feel dat i cannot trust anyone haii its true dat wad u all said.. u all said u all cant trust anyone and all dat yea i feel it too i cant trust anyone with my troubles.. last time i used to tell me troubles to amanda yea bt after u ignored me i told no one of my troubles u noe y? cus no one cares.. even if i tell them they wun comfort me or wad and its fcking irritating when u tell ppl ur problems and den juz reply a one word answer its seriously irritating. nw although amanda has tok to me bt i still didnt tell u my problems cus i dun trust u as much as i trusted u last time.. if u can once ignore me cus of him.. how sure can i be dat u wun do it the 2nd time the 3rd time? i really dun dare to tell u any of my problems alr.. and i didnt asked u to tok to me.. i juz wanted u to understand me.. i wan u to noe wad u did is really unfair... and even when dat time i asked u.. u lied again.. haii i realise the person i can trust the most is jamie and jenny although sumtimes their attitude sux bt they are really the ones i can trust the most.. i really hate the world being so unfair the life being such a sucky ting everyting seriously sux.. and its true so wad if u got happiness bt hve no one to share it with its nothing bt a piece of trash..
and in a relationship.. if no acknowledgement is done.. its nothing bt a name.. it has no meaning in it.. when u say tings.. do u mean it? or do u say for the sake of saying it.. when u say sumting.. mean it.. dun juz say for fun.. when theres sumting in ur mind juz say it out dun keep it inside.. it does no gd.. and xinyi ur sumtimes making me confuse too... i really muz remind myself.. i love ruijun and nt anyone else.. ruijun is my one and only and i love her wholeheartedly..
with love! :D
Monday, September 8, 2008 @ 4:55 AM
Yhaiish do you noe when i tell u sumting and wanted u to like at least show sum care and u replied "oh" i seriously feel irritated and angry. i tot u could at least say a few words which cared bout me bt u juz kept on replying oh oh oh oh. haiis i really hope i can stop being so sensitive sia... bt its like u dun wan tell me anyting..
with love! :D
Sunday, September 7, 2008 @ 6:34 AM
Yhahs created a private blog nt meant for ppl to noe yup juz to say out my feelings here =)
erm yea i like ruijun yup i like her. and i noe i like her alot. bt sumtimes shes like the same as any other girl. i tot she would be like diff frm others. bt still shes the same. and wads worse? she same as one of my ex. yea amanda. when ppl irritate her or says he like her, they dun care and they simply continues to irritate and she told me wad he said and everyting i called her to blk him and she said very bad leh so fine after awhile i told her to scold him and she said he very sad leh. well, den u go like him ah? wa lao its like u said he keeps irritating u and i called u to scold him or blk him and u cnt bare to? wth? haiish forget it ba. i juz hve a feeling we wun last long u said u bluff him dat we 2 stead. do u even noe wad u are trying to mean? haiish.. mayb u dun wan to stead? i dun wan complain too much ba haii
and about amanda haii still ignoring me? i really dun get it y u are ignoring me. izit dat u tink im the cause dat u 2 broke? i alr tried helping u 2 le.. wad else do u wan me to do? forget it ba u wan ignore den ignore all u wan haii really duno wan do wad liao la zzz..
with love! :D