Saturday, October 25, 2008 @ 12:52 AM
Yhaiish.. i knew it dat wadever u hve said last time wasnt true.. i was too naive.. i should know dat no girl would ever love me dat much or infact no girl would ever love me... i was too silly i was too stupid.. y isit dat i can nvr change my tinking? u said dat we are friends now so u are trying to mean dat u dun like me anymore? haiis.. everyting is like so stupid.. y was i so stupid in the 1st place..? i trusted u dat u would like me.. bt in the end.. everyting was still the same... y muz it be like this everytime? i really dun dare to trust love anymore.. its like love can nvr last.. its juz like a happy beginning which everytime have to end the hard way.. infact.. its starting to hurt when it haven even started.. haiis.. so do u still like me? i really duno.. even if u said u do.. i dun dare to believe anymore.. its like i cnt trust anyone nw.. everyone is like telling lies.. y muz lie even exist in this world? y cnt ppl juz tell the truth for juz once? wad should i do?haiis i really duno la.. should i continue to like u? or should i juz give up? i duno y i dun bare to give up.. isit dat im scared? or am i juz plainly selfish? im guess im nt the dumbo ur looking for ba... last time.. i felt nothing when i was emo.. nw i seem to feel much more when i feeling sad.. more den juz sad haiis.. i duno how to explain.. so wad if i get 3rd in lvl 1st in class platoon master so? wads the big fuck about getting all these when no one is there to share ur success.. its juz a position.. a status.. its meaningless.. everyting seems to be so lame when theres nth to share.. getting this stupid things.. wads the use?
with love! :D