Monday, February 2, 2009 @ 7:27 AM
Yhaiis.. now i dun even noe if i like her? i wan to tell her i like her bt the prob is, wad if she ignores me? or will it be a better choice? now dat i noe he is toking to him.. seriously, i really no mood liao.. i duno why la mayb im jealous and over sensitive again? why everytime oso lidat? i oso duno.. amanda, i really like u but i duno if i should tell u.. i have a feeling u dun like me. dats y i dun wan to tell u..juz afraid it would worsen the whole situation.. its like im scared u will like him again.. but, even if u do, wad can i do? i cant do anything.. i can only watch u leave.. i really dun wan to try losing u again.. its not a nice feeling really.. if u are willing to give me another chance.. i would really treasure it.. but im oso not sure if u are lying bout everything u said.. sumtimes.. i dun dare to trust.. im juz afraid u will juz lie to me again and make me look like a fool..
wad is the feeling like to love ppl? i really wan to noe how u feel about me.. or u juz treat me like a normal fren? i really believe dat sumtimes boys nid comforting too.. they sumtimes do nid a shoulder as well.. wad if u dun like me? do i have the courage to let go of u? if i told u i like u.. wad will u do? will u still treat me the same as nw? why do u always make me so confuse? i noe.. love at this age is like a for fun thing.. but why does it still keeps coming up haunting our mind? i really wan to treat it seriously.. but.. no matter how hard i try, it still ends with tears and sadness..
will u go bac to him? will u like him again? i duno i really duno.. i hope u can be by my side.. as my stead.. not as a fren, gd fren or anything similar.. but.. wad if ur not happy when ur with me? should i still keep u by my side? or should i let u go? its like magnet.. if they are not suppose to be together.. no matter how hard u try to force them together.. they dun meet.. they dun contact with each other.. even if u used a scotch tape to stick them together.. one day.. they will eventually repel off each other.. i noe im not trying hard enough.. im juz afraid u would lie to me again.. afraid dat u wun like me ever again.. i really like u amanda..
with love! :D